That was an avani avittam day, when I was in Class 11.
I am done with my traditional poonal change and I am asked to meditate upon a mantra, a 1000 times. It reads as "kamokaarisheen manyurakaarisheeth namo nama:"
I was thinking that those were the names of rishis"kamoka" rishi and "manyuraka"rishi. That day I had a very deep meditation on those two rishis - prolonged thoughts about those two sages who were experts / the real seekers.
I continued doing this every year and my prayers were very staunch over that rishis over a period time.
Only, so many years later that I realised that it was not the names of two rishis. Rather the meaning of mantras is that - whatever sin that I committed in the last one year, is actually not done by me - it is done by my "kama" and "Manyu" - Kamo akaarisheeth (its only the desire which did the sin); Manyu akaarisheeth(its the anger which did the sin)
I started laughing on hearing this explanation. All along my thought that the mantra referred to rishis, infact was a "self realisation" principle or an act of repenting for the mistakes. Then on, my visualisations were very clear and I practiced my meditation process the same way, as now corrected.
Then came another jolt.
One day when I was driving, I saw a girl standing alone in the bus-stop. She was looking pretty good and attractive and at that moment it struck me that the girl is a result of her parents!! Its her parent's enjoyment for a second (or seconds, as you may correct me), which made that object, the girl, stand before me today.
From the next moment, as I am driving, for every girl or boy whom I could see, I am able to see a lust behind those objects - its the lust (kama) that created all the objects around me, including me.
Any object, human or inhuman, requires a desire / lust on the part of the creator so that the object is created. Hence if we can pray the act of "creation" as God [p.s. refer my previous article on xxx] and the "creator" himself as God, why not we pray the stimulus for creation, which is the "desire" itself!! So it makes more sense to me that "kama" is not a verb - an act - rather kama is a noun, its an object pre-requisite for creation.
So I am justified in meditating that it is the "kama" that created this [kamo akaarisheeth] - I am not here referring to my desire. I am referring to the desire of the Supreme, which resulted in creation. As a corollary, I may conclude that if "desire" is a pre-requisite for creation, then "anger" (in abstract terms a temper) is a pre-requisite for destruction.
So I believe that when I say kamo akaarisheeth, Manyur akaarisheeth - I mean that its the divine desire and temper which results in creation and destruction.
More questions crop up in my mind now. But still my enquiry will continue.
I am done with my traditional poonal change and I am asked to meditate upon a mantra, a 1000 times. It reads as "kamokaarisheen manyurakaarisheeth namo nama:"
I was thinking that those were the names of rishis"kamoka" rishi and "manyuraka"rishi. That day I had a very deep meditation on those two rishis - prolonged thoughts about those two sages who were experts / the real seekers.
I continued doing this every year and my prayers were very staunch over that rishis over a period time.
Only, so many years later that I realised that it was not the names of two rishis. Rather the meaning of mantras is that - whatever sin that I committed in the last one year, is actually not done by me - it is done by my "kama" and "Manyu" - Kamo akaarisheeth (its only the desire which did the sin); Manyu akaarisheeth(its the anger which did the sin)
I started laughing on hearing this explanation. All along my thought that the mantra referred to rishis, infact was a "self realisation" principle or an act of repenting for the mistakes. Then on, my visualisations were very clear and I practiced my meditation process the same way, as now corrected.
Then came another jolt.
One day when I was driving, I saw a girl standing alone in the bus-stop. She was looking pretty good and attractive and at that moment it struck me that the girl is a result of her parents!! Its her parent's enjoyment for a second (or seconds, as you may correct me), which made that object, the girl, stand before me today.
From the next moment, as I am driving, for every girl or boy whom I could see, I am able to see a lust behind those objects - its the lust (kama) that created all the objects around me, including me.
Any object, human or inhuman, requires a desire / lust on the part of the creator so that the object is created. Hence if we can pray the act of "creation" as God [p.s. refer my previous article on xxx] and the "creator" himself as God, why not we pray the stimulus for creation, which is the "desire" itself!! So it makes more sense to me that "kama" is not a verb - an act - rather kama is a noun, its an object pre-requisite for creation.
So I am justified in meditating that it is the "kama" that created this [kamo akaarisheeth] - I am not here referring to my desire. I am referring to the desire of the Supreme, which resulted in creation. As a corollary, I may conclude that if "desire" is a pre-requisite for creation, then "anger" (in abstract terms a temper) is a pre-requisite for destruction.
So I believe that when I say kamo akaarisheeth, Manyur akaarisheeth - I mean that its the divine desire and temper which results in creation and destruction.
More questions crop up in my mind now. But still my enquiry will continue.
